Wondering

Sitting next to him I realize
that I am far,
my mind is not here.

I star to wonder about the time
when all this love will end,
taking separate ways,
and forgetting what we were.

I will have to be myself again,

embracing my new
but expected loneliness.

I will have to enjoy the pain,

change my blood
and make it cold,
being strong
as the love we had.

I know I was always caring,
looking out for our desires,
but the only thing
that now I need
is start to breath
and overcome my fear
of being free.